Thursday, August 18, 2011

Stress :/

Alright... I am giong to have a venting session... :)

Ben has been working nights for quite awhile now and can I just say I absolutely HATE it! I hate being home alone at night and feel like I don't ever get to see him. This is how it goes. Wednesday Ben goes in at midnight so I come home from work at about 6pm and see him until I go to bed (he lays in bed until I fall asleep) then Thursday he sleeps until about 4:30 then he goes to work at 5:15, by the time I get off and get Rhyder Ben is already one to work. Same thing happens on Fridays, Saturdays Rhyder and I wake him up about 3 and we hangout with him until about 5:15 and he is off to work. Sundays he sleeps until about noon and then he hangs out with Rhyder and I. Ben has Sunday, Monday and Tuesday nights off!!! Monday's and Tuesday's I work until about 6 then come home and do dinner then most the time lay down since I have not been feeling good. Same thing again on Wednesday! I can't wait until he is done working nights! Hopefully he will be done in a few weeks.

1st Dr's Visit

On Tuesday I had a doctor's apptointment. Usually Ben would have been at work but since he has been working another shift he was able to go! Rhyder also tagged along with us to hear the baby's heart beat. When we got there they were so excited I was back and brought the family :D They could not get over how big Rhyder has gotten! Crazy enough I weigh the same as when I went in for my first appt with Rhyder. (LESS on my scale) We got to hear the heart beat which was in the 170's healthy and strong. My doctor also said that my uterus was the size of a 14 week baby, if you go by the original (mensteral cycle) I would be 10 weeks 3 days. She said she didnt know if it just didn't go all the way done from Rhyder since he was so big. Unless I go get an ultrasound we are just going with 10 weeks 3 days until I do get an ultrasound! It was a good appt and I can't wait until the next time we get to go in :D

Thursday, August 11, 2011

March 2012 Baby!!

Yes, that's right... We are EXPECTING again!!!

It all started when we went to the country fest in South Jordan the end of June. We met some friends at the country fest and were havin such a great time until the girls decided to go on roller coaster which I absolutely LOVE!!!! I could go on them ALL day... well, not this time. I felt so sick afterwards. When we left Ben stopped at Wendys to get some dinner. I was so sick I couldn't even smell food. The second we walked in our front door me and all the things I was carrying went straight to the bathroom and puked.

At that moment I knew something was not right! I had never in my life got sick from a rollercoaster! Over July 4th we went to a friends cabin for a nice little vacation with friends and family. Ususally the smell of liquor doesnt make me sick but this weekend was totally different! I could smell it from so far away and would get SO nauseated! I kept telling my mom I must be pregnant or something cuz this is not like me. When we came home I still was not feeling right, I kept telling my mom that I didnt feel good or like myself! Her response was always "why don't you go take a test?"

Let me give you a little insight of how I feel about pregenancy tests! HA HA When I thought I was pregnant with Rhyder I took 4 take home test and they ALL came back - NEGATIVE! But, sure enough I was pregnant, with that being said I don't trust these things!

Me being me I just kept telling my mom that there was NO point in taking one since it would just say negative anyways! I never really did tell Ben how I felt cuz his response is ususally you have stomach problems and don't feel good so what is new... lol I finally broke down and decided that since I was going to the store anyways I would just buy one and take it, then I could also tell my mom I did and nothing! So I bought a box of 3 incase I needed them all. :)

Rhyder and I left the store and went home. I sat there and just starred at the tests to get up the courage. I finally went in and took the test, I immediatley walked out of the bathroom and picked Rhyder up. He was my finding out buddy! We went back in and looked at what I saw as 2 pink lines. I was in such shock that I couldn't smile, couldn't cry and couldn't talk! I had stuck in my head that even if I was it was not going to come back positive and there I was flabber gasted by the 2 pink lines.

I have always wanted to tell Ben in a cute way so I tried my hardest to not call or text him until he got home which was an hour later. I grabbed a white onsie out of Rhyder's drawer and wrote "I am going to be a BIG brother" on it so when Ben got home he would read it. I was still in shock and excited at this point so when he got home I picked Rhyder up and went to the front door. When Ben looked at him and read the shirt he looked at me with a serious face and said "how do you know?" (Ben had NO idea I thought I was or was taking a test)I started laughing and said I took a test. It's in the bathroom. His response was I need to go for a run haha Rhyder and I of course went with him but just walked. It took us both a few days to get over the shock (I even took another test the next morning). We did get over the shock and we are very excited. I can't wait to find out what we are having and tell everyone! I hope for a girl but Ben thinks it's a boy! We will see and keep you posted! My 1st appt is August 16th!